I am slowly working on more deviations for all those who watch mine
though most aren't finished, sorry about that.

Anyways Life is ok.

i hope you all are having fun and relaxing!


Peace out!

Lol i did'nt know what to write as my journal subject...

Well i haven't been posting my drawings up anymore... they are getting too big... and charcolly so my scanner might not like that... so sorry guys... i guess you are goign to have to stick to reading my unfinished stories. though i haven't wrote any of them either, i have been to busy working (at the cinemas) and studying for math, chem, bio, microbio , etc... BUT have no fear there will be somethign soon

For those who care i am passing my course so soon i will be makign your Condionters and stuff...

OOOOH and you guys are missing out working at the cinemas is the BEST!!!!! lol at you in your face! *laughs to self*

ENJOY .... suckers!!!!

*chuckles*

Well life is intriguing... i thought i might say that, by the way that doesn't really have much to do with anything i am writing about. virtually no-one but me reads this so, this will be like a friendly reminder to myself of what has been occuring over the last i don't know.

Lol, well it's summer and it's still god damn cold! I CURSE AT THE GODS!!! they have done this delibratly to make me cold. -.-

So, since about 2 weeks ago i have discovered that my life is brillent now, in comprison to what it was. exceot the only problem is now is i have a mozzie bite on my neck >.> stupid mozzies. Plus i lost my wallet CURSE YOU GODS!!!!!!

I am now i Lab Techno at tafe studing in human anatomy *thmbs up*. this i a great achivement for me because i have grown up in a shit family who always put me down and said i wasn't oing anywhere in my life... well the finger up to you. hahaha. and plus i am the first in my family to go to tafe/uni

I have recently felt the most beautiful feeling nyone could ever feel, the feeling of wanting to spend the rest of my life with my partner/lover, Jack. I only recently discovered this because ...i am an idiot... but a 2 year relationship that just keeps getting better as each day goes by has proven to me that i truly love him. and whats so good is the no essence is ever lost, it's only added and its a truly beautiful thig that we share together so yeah... you fill in the gaps... but wait no-one reads this except me, so i know what i am talking about....

Well Pokemon pear on my DS, 'House' Dvds, my books, drawing and molly the cat have kept me enertianed (well molly isn't that enterianing unless youhave a thing for watching poeple/things sleep) while Jack and his mum, julie, travelling vietnam to buy cheap clothing and enjoy the luxruies that are produced by slave labourers, for ten more days they have already been 1 week and i am melting away of boredom and i am being soaked in the horrible emotion of missing jack (not so much his mum(but i still miss her(just not enough to wirte alot about her))).

i think i have spent over $100 of credit txting him... lol luckily vodafone is having awesome deals like $29 gives you $138 of txt and call time so the gods haven't damn me so much yet.

you know this is more then i would usually write so if anyone but me reads this is probably falling sleep right now because i am babbling, just because i can. Whats even worse is i can even write in my actual journal so i have to type it all out on the net so everyone can ignore it I remeber when i wrote a suicide jornal i had like 30 comments but when i am happy no replies... gosh you people suck. i think thats why people get depressed.... THINK ABOUT IT!

Sometimes i wish i was a hampster so i can crawl into peoples bed and sit on their chest staring at them untl they wake um and scream, and i will lol at them but i might get hurt if there was a cat around, espeically if it was molly she would eat me in an instance... no matter what.

The weather is crazy, I don't know how long i can survive this weather much longer.
I can feel my muscles Disintegrating from not being used.
My breath is becoming short and it hurts the more i enhale.
I can no longer feel pins and needles in my legs for the have frozen in this blizzard.
At the tip of my toes there are iciles.
I fear the worst....
I don't know have much longer i can survive the rain...

I Love My Heater

Something slghtly irratating. Absence. The time during which one is away. Is... Amazing. Amaing how it can effect someone so much in so many ways. For me, the strain of having to miss that one person. the strong muscular or physical effort to stand two days without them. Straining myself not to pick up the phone and call.

Everyday i am finding it harder and harder to separate for even a night. I'm going crazy. very enamored or infatuated and utterly senseless. But it is wrong. As in not correct in action, judgment, opinion, method, etc.

[i say to myself]
"Wait... What are you doing?"
"You're babbling. Thats what."
"But why are you feeling so... "
"sad? everytime he/you goes home?"
"Yes..."
"That could because you're either 1) completely and utterly weird and cannot last without a day from making sure he is ok like somesort of mother"
"as in to act maternally?"
"yes. or You love him and Thanks to a thing could absence you miss him when he is gone. however you just need to calm down a little and leave to worrying to a mother... You're not a Leech..."